Some days, you just get tired of feeling.
Both the good and the bad. Sometimes, it gets hard to tell.
Sweetness and distrust can merge together so well to create a time bomb for heartbreak.
Maybe it’s just an excuse. To avoid love because of personal fears. The fear of pain, or the fear of surreal happiness.
Or maybe it’s your intuition. How it tries to tell you to stay away. Stay clear of the deception and the facade of perfection.
Or maybe you’re just exhausted. When your lifetime experiences have shown that when something looks too good, it’s usually untrue.
It gets confusing. Then you start to release your natural lidocaine to suppress all the feelings that just doesn’t make any sense.
It’s unhealthy. But some days you just can’t help it.
Some say that the sense to feel is what make humans human, but some days it becomes necessary to succumb to your inner creature’s harsh inability to feel to keep your sanity.
“The scariest thing about distance is that you don’t know whether they’ll miss you or forget you.”
– Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook (via runawaytrain